Walking back home with Jesus

It's Friday again, as usual I played badminton with Ali. Both badminton courts in The University of Nottingham Sports Complex are reserved for staffs only every Friday 6p.m to 8p.m. Surprisingly most of the students there don't know. Well, why can I play with the staffs? I somehow brought forward my student helper identity from Nilai to Nottingham :P Actually I just helped once to clear the store room and doing stock check only, but I wish to help the sports committee (Ali and 2 more staffs) more in the future.

Overall, it's really nice today, kinda "on form" and played almost 10 games I think. Yupz, with my blistered toe and "crocodile" sports shoe (please refer to my previos post "Taking Comments") and I won more than half I think. Then, I walked home alone and take away some food from SA (Student Association) building. Haha, imagine a wet chinese boy with take away food at his left hand, a badminton bag on his right and walking unequally (toe injured mah). The same old me that most of the Nilai people know.

Really very tired. Walking from Sports Complex to SA building takes 2-3 minutes I think, then after take away food have to walk til the bridge that connects my uni to Taman Tasik Semenyih which takes approximately 5 minutes, and from the bridge to my house another 5-7 minutes. Usually the journey is very easy for me, but not with my problematic feet.

Seriously the night scenery in Nottingham is SUPER ROMANTIC. Moments like this make me feel so wrong to walk alone, then when I reached the bridge, I took out my Sony Ericsson W550i and pressed the walkman button to enhance the emotional impact. It turned out to be Jesus Messiah by Chris Tomlin, and suddenly I feel like something is in my head, just like LORD is talking to me.

The path is dark, but with dim lights, the night is cold and silent, I'm walking harder and slower than usual, with some "burden" on me (take away food and badminton bag is not that heavy actually, I'm just too imaginative). With the background music Jesus Mesiah, I feel like I'm one of the christian movie character in film. *SS (Syok sendiri or Self-satisfying)* Before I reach the bridge, there's a very steep hill I need to go down *ouch for my feet*, and the bridge is above a pond, after that before I reach home there'll be another hill that I need to walk up. However, I'm not feeling tired, or blaming anything eventhough the way is so tough (not really). Feeling like my desired is fulfilled by the things I've done just now and I know I'm going home, and LORD is with me.


So what flashed through my mind is, when Jesus is carrying the cross, He's walking to a hill, across a very far distance. Haha, here's the question, any christian out there knows from where to where? After a long discusion with most of the bible pros in Nilai and Nottingham, finally I know. It's from Praetorium in Jerusalem to the Hill of Golgotha (Golgotha means Calvary, which also means skull)! Thanks Sarah, Kai Seng and Alex for the info. The distance is 1.33 mile, according to my calculator it's 2.145792 km. He started walking from Praetorium at sunrise, which is 5.55 a.m in Isreal, and reached Golgotha at 9a.m, which is about 3 hours (I cannot confirm about the time taken cause in the movie Passion of Christ, He started walking at sunrise, and Mark 15:25 says crucifixion starts at 9a.m morning). Cheryl also said Aunty Elizabeth told her crucifixion normally happens early in the morning. Writting this post is hard where I did a lot of research online, through msn and also the BIBLE!

Praetorium in the city of Jerusalem:

Golgotha (Hill of skulls):

Think about it, He's carrying a big cross, just tortured by people, and crucifixion is designed not to kill people, but to humiliate. People are all around mocking Him, blocking His way. Every step He took is for me, you and everyone. There's some confusion where the crucifixion starts at 9a.m, but Jesus was crucified at the sixth hour, which is 12 afternoon. At 3 p.m He shouted "Eloi, Eloi, lema sabachthani?" which means "My God, my God, why have You forsaken me?". So me and Audri assume that they used 3 hours (9 morning til 12 afternoon) to set up the cross and nail Jesus, but He sustained the bleeding/suffering for 3 hours (or more)? Correct, Jesus is the only person that can hang crucification for such long duration (info from Audri). Even Jesus cannot understand why he needs to die like that, and he asked LORD is there another way (info from Kai Seng). The crucifixion hurts the LORD much more than Jesus knew, but in this dark hour, He must do nothing. For our sake, for us who worth nothing, for our salvation, just because He loves us so much.

Well, I'm just having little problem on my feet, it's nothing compared to his unfailing love and great sacrifice. The furthest I ever walked is from Nilai KTM to Nilai University College which is about 7km and it took me 1 hour 15 minutes. Jesus took about 3 times of my time to walk 3 times less of my distance, it really tells me His body condition is very very very very very very BAD (He's sweating blood because His blood vessels broke and he took 66 whips - info from Audri).

OK, back to my walk. I somehow, tried to slow down my steps, breathe in deeply to feel the moment. When I passed by Kai Seng's house, I heard someone laughing out very loud (wonder what they are playing). Then it reminds me about something, it's so true that after He came into my life, I found happiness, joy and laughters. It's not those that I used to act out like before, I really love my life right there and then. I'm also thinking, I fear loneliness no more, as I used to love it last time, I think I'm accepting more that He's always there for me. With all these thoughts in my mind, I forgotten the pain on my feet, it's like He's lifting me up, I guess this is what people say "I wanna make this moment forever". It's indiscribable by words, it's just overwhelming. Lord is with me, and in me.

Well, because of this post, I aggresively contacted many people for info, thank you Kai Seng, Sarah, Alex, Audri, Cheryl, Aunty Elizebath, and Shaun (instead of answering me, this Shaun just asked me to send him Sing Sing Sing - Chris Tomlin and Mighty To Save - Hillsongs ... HAIZ). Nevermind la... long time didn't chat with this fella also.

Some more strange things that I found during discussion with Audri are, Jesus was crucified on Friday (where we called Good Friday), and He said He will rise in 3 days time, which is Easter Sunday. But Friday morning to Sunday morning isn't it... 2 days? Audri said Easter is just a celebration of eggs (what the...). Audri also told me Christmas is not when Jesus was born, no one actually know the actual date when He's born. There's a lot of twists but they're interesting (Audri repeated this more than twice). Wow... as a new christian I really have a lot to learn.

Today I did something very weird and so far I just told Shaun about it. Yesterday there was an african classmate come to me and ask me to teach him ProE. But he's from Year1, he should know that thing better than me (By the way, his name is Gift). I was actually blogging my previos post in the Engineering Com Lab. At the moment I only have one thing in my mind, one week ago I was like him, know nothing about ProE, and because there're kind people willingly help me and guide me, I'm able to finish my project assembly. Although he didn't submit the initial assembly two days ago which is the due date, but he still need the assembly for the final report. OK la, make it simple, I just feel like helping him.

So... I "guide" him (you guys know la...) from the beginning until the end. He's actually quite encouraged after knowing that I just took up ProE for 1 week, and he says if I did it, he will take the challenge. Not bad, he's willing to learn, he really wants to know how I do every step. So I spent 2 days whole afternoon (Thursday 2 to 5pm and Friday 2 to 5pm) "guiding" him in the com lab. From drawing a simple shoe until parts assembly X_X Ya... he finished the whole thing in 2 days and it's almost as nice as mine... This is not what I would do if I'm in my right mind, I'll consider it as wasting time or too free (nothing to do) if I were me. Somehow, I don't feel it too strong again. I'm kinda confused by myself. Shaun just said, I did a good job. Of course, while in front of Shaun, I'll show no mercy and just tell him I don't feel good doing that, but seriously what he said made me feel comfortable and in peace. (OK la, thank you Shaun)

Here it comes again! Proverbs 16, "We can gather our thoughts, but the LORD gives the right answer." Yes LORD, we are trying hard together to understand Your words, Your teachings, only through You we can see the light, through You we walk the right way, through You we seek the truth. So be with us, be with Your children, and let us be with You. One more striking verse is Proverbs 16:33, "We may throw the dice, but the LORD determines how they fall." Yupz, we're gonna lay our life to You, but we ourselves have to throw the dice with all or our heart! Dear Father in heaven, I pray that Uncle Chan and Aunty Elizebath will have a fortunate journey to Perth at early November. Give wisdom and determination to Cheryl and Charles to run Nilai Sunday Worship smoothly this Sunday. I pray for Shaun that is worship leading this Sunday so that he can prepare the students' souls to praise and worship You. Uncle Tome has heart problem and undergoes surgery yesterday, he has to stay at Austrailia for 3 weeks. LORD, I pray that Uncle Tome will recover soon and will be able to join us to worship You. Amen!